A Lonely Heart

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 03:27:50 GMT

I'm falling apart

Friends

Tue, 02 Dec 2008 17:25:51 GMT

As most know, this journal is friends-only. I am always in the ever constant process of cleaning up the cob-webs.

If you got cut... figure it out. If you are new and would like to be added. Let me know please.

Sat, 15 Sep 2007 03:55:56 GMT

man... I haven't updated in the longest of time

Journal overhaul

Fri, 20 Apr 2007 15:16:23 GMT

Its time for a journal overhaul. Any suggestions for the new look?
thanks

For those that didn't know

Mon, 05 Feb 2007 16:23:29 GMT

Yes this journal is Friends Only... This is that "if you want added, comment here" posts...

Trades

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 17:30:06 GMT

Now accepting trades.

Interested?

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 16:45:47 GMT

Alright so once in a while I get really bored with the whole LJ thing. Sometimes, I NEED the attention. I'm stupidly frustrated in my own right I guess. I've been thinking about starting a website instead of using my LJ. Or maybe both? I'm also very weary of the individuals that I add to my friends list. Especially Males... So I've been thinking if I should just losen up and let it all go. yes I've had my images stolen and its not fun or pretty. If I get a good suggestion on some pics, I'll take them, post a few in a community or too and just... let whoever be added as a friend as they want. So... make some suggestions, tell all your friends about me... and who knows. Maybe I'll throw together a site with content that hopefully won't be stolen. I dunno. what do you think?

Yeakies

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 17:54:31 GMT

First off, much Thanks to all that participated in my previous post! Lots of fun was had!

To those that didn't: you're missing out.

It has also come to my attention that pictures that I had previously posted in a few communities, were stolen and passed around the internet via some weird Yahoo group. Great... way to ruin it for everyone. All pics will be in my journal, friends only, from here on into the future. Is there any sets, you my friends, would like to see?

Juice

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 16:31:48 GMT

Wow its been a while since I've posted anything JUICY here. Especially pics. Alright so tell me something JUICY. I'm in the mood to hear it. I'd love to seeeee something JUICY but you guys rarely do that anymore. I'd fully send a pic back - no questions asked. Lets rock n roll shall we?

Just so you all know...

Fri, 14 Jan 2005 13:52:06 GMT

Some people just don't get it.

and for those of you already on my list and know... I'm sorry.

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 15:13:24 GMT

If I have removed you from my friends list... its because you either A) never write to me, B) never added me back or C) have no interest. Thanks

masacism

Wed, 08 Sep 2004 01:48:37 GMT

somthing just isn't right anymore. I think I've been out of the dating pool for to long. I can't tell you the last time I even had a hug. My best friend doesn't even "care" for me any longer. I've found myself fearing for the best and hoping for the worst. Everytime I see people who care about one another it hurts me. I work my ass off to see friends relationships flurish but why? maybe its because I know how much better off they are then me. To see them enjoy things so much more then me. Maybe I do it to make myself look and feel worse. Its true... nobody calls me unless they want somthing... and even when I deliver it or make the effort to go out of my way for a friend that I care about. All I get is a thanks and a door. O well. i'm out.

no

Thu, 12 Aug 2004 00:43:35 GMT

Have you wokeup and just thought to yourself: Why did I wakeup? I generally go around my usual day, quiet as always and just ponder the thoughts of anyone actually noticing me. If I wasn't there, what would the difference have been?

I almost didn't make it into this world - in fact I wasn't supposed to. But for some reason I did. My entire life I've thrived to be a better person for everyone. To mean somthing, to make people smile, to make a difference. I work so hard - probably to hard. I eventually end up burnt out and lonely. Everyone from work makes big plans to do stuff but I'm never invited, I always hear about it the next morning.

For some reason, I just never seem to fit in. I'm most comfertable when I'm all alone. I travel a lot. I go places to dissapear. I want to be someone else - somwhere else. I don't like buildings and roads and people. I just like miles of nothing but nature. Its what keeps me alive.

I've only met one person that I truely thought cared about me. And then one day, she was taken away. Gone from my life as if she was a cloud in the sky. I've had people try to fill that hole. But the list is so very short, I can't even remember the last time anyone was even remotely interested in me.

Somtimes, I look in the mirror and think "wow I'm an old man." They say that at 22 you're in the prime of your life. Just over your peak physical condition. I keep hoping, thinking, wishing, saying "that when I grow up." But its hard to imagine that I'm supposed to already be there. Everyday I see people younger then me with so much more. I feel as though I've missed it all. I'm a ghost still working to pay his taxes.

this life ain't worth living. I would die tonight for Love. but I have no reason to believe it will ever exist.

hm

Thu, 15 Jul 2004 10:33:25 GMT

anybody have any requests or wanna trade?

Please Don't Let it Go

Fri, 11 Jun 2004 01:24:46 GMT

From here on out

Sat, 22 May 2004 19:36:19 GMT

My approval is required past this point